I turn 23 tomorrow.
I was born 23 years ago on a Tuesday after my poor mother went through over 24 hours of labor and a C-section. I don’t remember much of the event, but my mother swears it was worth it.
In the last 23 years, I have read well over a hundred books, visited over ten countries, lived in Europe for a year, learned to play the violin, taught myself to knit, written many many poems, graduated both high school and college, won the state championship in poetry interpretation, competed in a national speech tournament, performed in eleven plays (including a musical), made many lasting and life-changing friendships, blogged every day for the last four years, survived almost a full year of grad school, met the love of my life and have gotten engaged…among other adventures.
I have also lost all of my genetic grandparents, lost members of my church family (by death or departure), lost many friends (by death, by time, or by my own foolishness), survived an emotionally abusive relationship, lost my temper, lost my nerve, damaged my testimony, stumbled and fallen a thousand times.
In the last 23 years, I accepted Christ as my Savior. I was baptized. I went on four separate missions trips. I told God He could do whatever He wanted with me, so long as He stayed with me.
Right now the marching orders are “Do school. Do work. And from June 27th onward, do marriage.”
Simple enough, or so it seems.
The future is a frightening thing. I still feel 16 and completely unprepared for life, despite the quality training I’ve received at every turn. Part of me is stuck at 3, looking in the mirror and telling myself not to forget a moment of the life that awaited me.
I have forgotten so many moments. I have forgotten so many people. Some days all I remember is the bad, but there are so many good things to remember. Oh, so many wonderful things.
And I cannot forget, nor will I ever forget, that God is good. He is the Great Constant in my life. I have changed. My friends and family have changed. My world has changed. But God has not. And He never will.